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ETERNAL MELODY
Chapter 156 - It Is Already Too Late
The extent of her sadness and pain is far greater than what he thought. Yuhi believed that he was the only one who could understand the present her. But it seems like even he will have a hard time here. She uses books as a substitute to explain what is actually going on in her head.Living with suffocating feelings, Yuhi wondered how Sumire could do it. How can this girl be so strong despite suffering so much? He wrapped his arms around her and patted her back. "Are you okay?" Yuhi mumbled.
"I guess so." Sumire leaned into his hold. "I wonder why I am so comfortable when I am with you Yuhi-san, do you understand? It does not make any sense to me."
"Maybe because you like me a lot."
Sumire blinked. "I suppose that is the best answer." She trailed off. "I am indeed more fond of you than before."
"Sorry that was—"Yuhi paused when he saw her expression. It was the same cold and hollow gaze from before they went out. For a moment he completely froze when he felt her hold his hand. "Are you really okay now?"
"I seem to have a fever again."
Yuhi brushed his hands across her forehead. "Yeah, your hot." He trailed off. "Want to go to the infirmary?"
"Don't we have to give a speech to new students?"
"I can take care of that, you go and rest."
At that comment he watched as a dark aura surrounded her. Yuhi looked at the girl puzzled.
"If I leave you alone even for a moment Yuhi-san, the new freshman will surround you and steal you away. You don't understand what kind of creatures young girls are."
Creatures? Yuhi chuckled when he saw her troubled expression. So this how she shows her jealousy? Despite her strange speech. Yuhi understood what she was getting at. Sumire did not feel well, but she would rather sacrifice her health than risk it.
"Should I skip it too then? Let's go cuddle in the infirmary."
Sumire blinked and sighed. "Yuhi-san, I noticed this before, but why do you come to school if you keep skipping everything?"
"Hmmm? I already have enough credits just to let you know." Yuhi inhaled her scent and brought his lips to her neck. "Why I come into school? Before you came here, people seldom saw me around. I come in for you."
He saw her look dumbfounded, and he chuckled. "For someone who just came, you need more credits to pass."
"Yet, you encourage me to skip!"
Yuhi laughed. "You will be fine. I will teach you everything."
Sumire sighed but relaxed in his hold. "I still think we should go to the ceremony."
"Alright." Yuhi squeezed her hands. "Tell me if you feel unwell."
Sumire glanced down at their hands. "Are we going there like this?"
"Of course we are. We should demonstrate what a senior couple is like."
"Your so silly, alright let's get going."
The two of them quickly left the room, and exited the building. The moment they walked outside though, people surrounded him, leading to Sumire letting go of his hand. He looked at her desperately but saw her mumble. "It's okay."
With those words said, he watched as Sumire sat down on the curb and pulled out the copy of Osamu Dazais, only human. A deep sigh crossed his lips as he turned to the people who surrounded him. A mixture of students and business people.
He does not want to bother with them at all. But for Sumire's sake, he will put up with it.
By the time he finally gets free from the crowd, Yuhi realized that Sumire was no longer there. He looked around worriedly when something caught his attention; on the ninth floor, he spotted her. Ah...
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Sumire intended to stay and wait for Yuhi. But after watching for a few minutes she slowly realized something. This is the difference between him and her. So many people love and support Yuhi, so many people care. If something were to happen to him people would notice. As for her? Nobody would give her a second thought?
She leaned against the railing with a cigarette in her hands and looked down. It seemed like the crowd already left Yuhi-san be. He will most likely arrive soon.
She didn't know when it started.
But at some point, it felt like she was no longer breathing. The pain, anguish, all those tears - at some point her emotions became numb. She no longer had trouble breathing, there was nothing there.
'Ah now I am truly empty.'
If only it was like this from the beginning, then she would not have caused such painful experiences for those she cared for.
All of them leave in the end of the day, she never expected anybody to stay by her side. They all leave because they get tired, they get sick of her, they all get fed up with her behaviour. Of course she cannot blame them. They have every right to leave somebody like her.
A person like her does not deserve happiness and that was why she remained distance. Friendship? If she bothered with it again wont they leave like they did before? If people are going to end up leaving anyway, then why does she have to get involved with them?
Its better if she is alone. But it is frightening to be left alone. She is a hypocrite, even though she understood that it is better to remain distant from everybody. There is still something she clings to so desperately even though it is falling apart.
Back then it was family. She clung to it desperately. Its okay if they dont understand, its okay if they don't listen. It's okay if they think she is weird, as long as they stay with her. But in the end maybe she should have just told them everything. As a young girl she often read books and stories about fairies and mythical creatures. Ah, that looks nice. The power to change something with a simple wave of their hand.
Reality is not that simple, change doesn't happen overnight. It depends on the individual.
If they knew about the pain and anguish she felt since she as a child, would they have come to understand her? It is already too late for that.
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ETERNAL MELODY
Chapter 157 - It Could Break Them
Sumire does not know when she stopped breathing. But she noticed when it started to get better. No she found a method to deal with the emptiness. Whenever she read books she felt calmer. Ah, so there are other people who feel this way too.
'I am not the only weird one. If others feel like this too, does that make me normal?
Back then people often told me to behave normally. But I did not understand that. What did they mean by normal? I am alive aren't I?'
Sometimes Sumire felt like a dead person walking. She could no longer breathe and her emotions slowly became numb. She could cry and shout for hours but nobody would care, nobody would come to her. Who else would come to her? She is already all alone. The people who cared all left because they got tired.
Maybe its time to go? Maybe it is time to end this all. To the very end there was nothing she could do, she will die as a useless, and wretched person. Did death frighten her?
Yes it did, she was scared to die. Scared to die with such negativity, scared to die as a piece of trash.
"I was always on your side."
Is that so? Ha, then..then if that was the case.
'Where were you when I was in so much pain? Where we you when I felt alienated from those close to me? Where were you when I was bullied? Where were you when I felt so hopeless, lost and depressed? When I felt so useless, weak and unwanted? Did you even notice? The reason why I turned out this way, the reason I cannot move forward, do you know?'
People are liars, there is nobody out there who is sincere and genuine. Everybody thinks what they are doing is normal, they assume they are the right ones, they are the normal ones. It is the other person at fault. But the reality is? Those words and actions can severely hurt another person. It could break them.
If something like that can break another person, then what about somebody who is already broken?
Her thoughts broke off when she felt a pair of arms wrap around her from the back. Yuhi brushed his lips against her neck and muttered something softly before pulling away.
"You alright?"
"Mm, I just thought it was too noisy."
Also, she noticed the looks they gave her. It seems like many people do not approve of her relationship with Yuhi. She does not have to listen to their bullshit, but if it will affect Yuhi, then it is better to remain distant. At least when they are around other people.
She turned around and wrapped her arms around his neck. "Yuhi-san, let me do something bad to you."
Yuhi chuckled. "Well, I don't mind if you do. But I think people can see us from here."
"I don't care."
"You know, back when I was in the underworld, you frustrated me a lot."
She raised her eyebrows at his words. "Are you complaining now?"
"Just a bit of discussion. I always wondered why I could not do things as well as you. Even though I had more experience and skill, you still managed to succeed in many places that I couldn't."
"I wonder about that. I always thought I was a failure who could not do anything right. Whenever I watched you, Yuhi-san, I thought ah this person is amazing. Whether it is the underworld society, music, or art world, your amazing."
Yuhi chuckled softly. "You respect me that much?"
"Is it unusual?"
"Well, a little since your the girl I like."
The girl he likes, huh? She still found it weird that he loved her. No, what she found strange was how long Yuhi liked her for. Why did he like her for so long? Sumire thought back to that snowy night several years ago and paused. Did she do something back then? She was only a child, though.
Yuhi kissed the temple of her forehead. "I wanted to ask you about those documents Shin told me to give you. Do you mind if I keep them for a while?"
Sumire sighed. It seems like she cannot persuade him there. If Yuhi-san helps, though, then this investigation could run a lot smoother. When he worked in the underworld as her subordinate, Sumire recalled how helpful Yuhi was. He can grasp things so quickly, and his understanding of the criminal's methods is amazing. Indeed, it would help more if Yuhi was on their side.
"Then, okay. But you have to tell me everything."
"Got it. It seems like we will be working together again. I look forward to seeing how much you have improved."
"For now, I would like to go to a larger library. I know the school has one of the largest ones in the city. But there is another one, right?"
Yuhi nodded. "You need a special membership, which I have." He trailed off. "I guess I could bring you with me; you can get a membership too since Hino owns the library."
Sumire blinked when she heard those words. She understood that Hino was rich. But this amount of influence is indeed incredible. Maybe she should tease him less and start to treat him with respect.
"That sounds good."
"Also since were on his subject. What do you feel about individuals with supernatural powers?"
"If you ask me whether they exist or not, then yes. After all, anything is possible in this world. A more scientific explanation would be the Red Queen evolution theory. If humans evolve, something unnatural will occur in their bodies. It would not be peculiar for people to manifest strange abilities due to gene mutation."
That's right; it isn't unusual. It was the same for that person too. Sumire always found it strange how quickly Mamoru could get to her. No matter how far apart they were from one another. It did not take long for her to realize why she formed a hypothesis in her head. But she still could not grasp everything.
So she confronted him directly about it one day.
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ETERNAL MELODY
Chapter 158 - Like A Treasure
September 7th, 2014
"Do you have supernatural powers?" Sumire asked.
Mamoru, who was reading a newspaper, looked over at her and nodded. "Right, I do."
Sumire blinked, surprised that he answered her so easily. Wait what? He actually has it? At first, she thought he was joking until she saw the expression on his face. What kind of situation is this?
"Ki," Mamoru said gently. "Come here, sit next to me."
She nodded and made her way over. No sooner did she reach the couch did he slump his head on her chest. Sumire looked around frantically. "What if people come in?"
"We are a couple now, so it doesn't matter."
Indeed, only two weeks have passed since she agreed to date him. But Sumire understood Mamorus signs. He wants to be spoiled right now.
She hesitated but caressed his hair. "So, you have an ability?"
"Sonic."
"The power to move at the speed of sound." Sumire trailed off, and her eyes widened. So that is why he could rescue her from so many tricky situations. It all makes sense now. But there is one thing that puzzled her.
"You don't seem surprised? Normally people would ask for proof."
"I've already seen it, and also this is normal. According to any evolutionary theory, humans are supposed to evolve to keep up with the environment's changes."
Mamoru blinked before he burst into laughter. "Of course, you see it that way."
"Am I wrong?"
"No, maybe you are right. I just woke up one day and noticed these strange abilities or so I would like to say. But I am no hero from a book. This ability was with me ever since I was a child. I never bothered to question where it came from. But listening to you just now, my curiosity is piqued. How many people in this world are like me?"
How many people, huh? Sumire noticed the loneliness in his eyes and the pain in his words. Even though he is always smiling, Mamoru is in pain too.
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Present Day
He was so strong, so brave, yet he broke down a lot in front of her. She saw many sides of him that he did not show other people, sides that he showed only her.
"Sumire?" Yuhi said, concerned.
It seemed like she was in a daze for a longer time than she thought. Sumire shook her head. "I am okay now."
"Were you thinking of him?"
His question surprised her. At the same time, it is more comfortable to speak about Mamoru in front of Yuhi, unlike with other people. Sumire understood how awkward it was.
After all, what guy would be happy hearing the girl he likes talk so much about another girl? Sumire noticed Yuhi's gaze linger on the cigarette on the ground. "I thought you didn't smoke."
"Like I said last time, it helps me think."
They both know that is BS. The nicotine in these cigarettes is harmful for the mind.
"Sumire."
He caresses her face like she is something precious. Whenever he does this, she tries to refrain from crying. Yuhi kissed her eyelids. "Don't cry so much; you will ruin your pretty face."
"Yuhi, I still miss Ru." She mumbled. No matter how happy she is with Yuhi. Something simple will lead her back to Tsueno Mamoru. Is it because she never got around to telling him, and that was why she had lingering regrets? Either way... "Yuhi-san, this isn't the time to flirt with me."
Sumire noticed that he was drawing small circles in her hands and looking at her lips. Her cheeks reddened slightly. "I know we have been dancing around this whole dating thing for a long time. But you—" She was about to tell him something, but this led to him closing the distance between them.
It was not a passionate kiss, but it was a gentle one to reassure her. When he pulled away, he brushed their foreheads together. "You know you don't have to tell me that every time. I know you feel guilty, but don't be. I understand, Sumire. I am jealous, yes, but not unreasonable. I told you I would wait for you."
He shouldn't have to wait for her. Most people date to have a happy relationship, not a set of complicated trials.
"You need to stop staring at me."
Sumire decided to change the topic swiftly.
"Are you saying I am not allowed to watch you?" He seemed amused.
A content sigh passed her lips when he kissed her forehead. "You make it too obvious." How is she supposed to act normal around him if he stares at her all day?
"It is okay, but keep it under moderation."
"But I like looking at you. I always want to look at you."
Sumire blinked at his straight forward words. Is it just her, or is Yuhi-san more honest these days? Indeed there does appear to be something different. When she first came here, there were many rumors regarding Yuhis behavior. But recently she has not heard any.
She understood why. Yuhi is so kind and gentle these days. He still gets angry occasionally, but it is not as often as before.
"Besides, I can say whatever I want to. If you would like, I can shower you with more affection every day, not just through words." Yuhi said mischievously as he bit her earlobe. She shuddered at his touch, and he mumbled. "I can be patient like I said. But I will have my way with you somehow, so keep that in mind, okay?"
Keep what in mind? This man is far too shameless. Does he not understand that it is bad for her heart-- Sumire paused in midthought when she saw his expression.
He knows what he is doing to her, and yet he continues to do this. What an unfair man. But then again, she likes their relationship. It is different than the relationship she had with Sano, Ren, and Mamoru. Yuhi differs from them. He smoothed his fingers across her heated face.
"You know I never thought we would get such peaceful moments like this. I mean back then we couldn't relax even for a moment. There were many occasions where I wanted to make a move on you, but we ended up getting interrupted."
Sumire rolled her eyes at that comment of his. "You wanted to make a move on me before?"
"Uh, don't look so surprised Sumire. You also tried to make a move on me before."
So he noticed? Indeed she attempted it before. She wanted to see what would happen if she tried to make a move on Yuhi and it seemed like it worked. "Is it okay for me to be happy Yuhi?"
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ETERNAL MELODY
Chapter 159 - The Truth Is
At that comment Yuhi frowned and Sumire immediately understood. He will lecture her for belittling herself again. To her surprise he said nothing and continued to caress her face.
She bit her lip. She would rather he lecture right now than treat her so well. Yuhi is so good to her but how long will that last? How much longer does she have until he leaves too? No matter how good he is to her, Sumire understood that he would also leave her.
Why would he bother staying with somebody as broken as her? Yuhi-san is a kind person and he understands her. He understands because he went through the same pain as her. But things are different now, he has turned his lifestyle around. Everything has changed for the better for him.
When Yuhi realizes how much of a burden she is. Sumire knew that he would also leave her. But until that day comes, she will saviour his kindness.
"You know when we were apart from each other. It felt like I was going crazy everyday not seeing you. Sometimes I would find things you liked, things like those sherbet candies horde it all to myself. The other guys always complained, they knew I didn't like sweet thing. I never ate those sweets but I kept them anyway." Yuhi laughed. "It didn't help how many times I hallucinated that you were right in front of me too."
Sumire leaned forward and kissed him lightly. "Yuhi-san, please stop confessing to me. You will make me feel bad." She trailed off. "The truth is I wanted to go to your side a long time ago. But I still had many insecurities and worries. I was afraid that I would cause you more problems instead."
It seems stupid talking about this stuff now. But it looks like Yuhi wants to talk about the pass. She watched as the creases in his brows deepen. It seems like there is more to it than what he is saying currently. Sumire however knew better than to pry.
It is no good, edging someone on regarding their emotions like that.
Humans can be such cruel creatures.
Such cruel creatures. It is easy for them to hurt others intentionally and unintentionally. Just because they did not intend to hurt the other person does that mean they can be forgiven. In fact, the ones who are the cruelest are those people, the one who does not intentionally intend to hut but end up doing so repeatedly. People who do not see themselves or wrong or try to look at it from another perspective. In their eyes the one who is wrong is not them.
"Yuhi-san, am I acting strange?"
Yuhi shook his head. "No, but can I do that bad thing?"
Her gaze softened when she heard his words. "Okay."
If there is a way to fill up this hole in her heart, then she would take it any day.
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That moment was very sweet, but Sumire's eyes twitched, annoyed as she moved his hand from hers. She walked a few steps ahead and angrily said. "I told you not to leave a mark!"
Yuhi rubbed his head sheepishly. "Well, your too pretty."
Does he think that type of excuse would work? Her thoughts broke off when he hugged her from the back. "Alright, you don't sulk so much. I understand that your embarrassed, but everybody knows we are a couple aren't arent children, this stuff is normal."
"Yuhi..."
He turned her around and kissed her lips. "You see people making out on campus grounds all the time. Don't get nervous or panic. Take a deep breath and calm down."
Is it really normal? Sumire still wasn't sure but she knew it would be stupid of her to sulk like this.
"Yeah, it's norm--"
"Normal he says. The teacher doesn't think so." A familiar voice said.
Sumire looked up and spotted Shin walking over. "Ah--" She stopped herself from saying her next words. "Could I talk to you for a bit?"
Yuhi sighed deeply and kissed her cheeks. "Alright, I will leave you two for a bit then. Tell me when you're done."
Sumire nodded and watched as Yuhi pulled away. She turned to Shin and he leaned against the wall. "I already know what you want to ask."
"I don't want Yuhi-san to get involved. Why did you give him so many hints?"
Shin sighed. "Don't be a fool. He is smarter than both of us. Do you think we could keep it a secret from him for long?"
"I know..we can't but--" Sumire recalled what he asked earlier. "Isn't it dangerous for him? He is no longer involved in the underworld society. If those people realize that Yuhi is helping too, won't they disturb him?"
"Indeed, but this is what he chose."
"Is there nothing you can do? He seems to listen to you."
Shin shook his head. "I should be asking you that."
"He won't listen to me on this." Sumire recalled his expression earlier on. "Do you think Yuhi-san is like Ru too? He has a special ability, and that's why he wants to get involved?"
"What makes you say that?"
"They say those with power tend to have a stronger sense of justice."
"Well, I can't argue there. It's because those with power realize they have the duty to help those in need."
"It's a sin to not help when you have power, right?"
Shin nodded. "I agree there. I don't think you have to worry too much, nothing should take into affect so soon. But even if something happens, Yuhi is a public figure, they won't strike him so easily."
"Is it okay for me then?"
"No, that's why I'll be protecting you."
She blinked once and then twice. "You'll protect me Shin?"
"Is that a problem?"
It isn't a problem. But, huh? She placed her hand on her heart. Why does it feel like something like this has happened before?
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ETERNAL MELODY
Chapter 160 - Nothing Would Change
Shin could guess what she was thinking. But that was exactly why. "You have some time now right? Let's finish this elsewhere."
Sumire laughed. "Oh! Are you going g to teach me? You haven't had time recently."
"Only for a bit."
It did not take them long before they reached the physics prep room. The moment he arrived, he noticed that somebody switched his computer on.
It was a message from his sibling.
"Sheesh, if he wanted to make up he could have just called or apologised directly or something. The way they did this, I'm not sure if he wants to apologise directly or make me mad. But well since he took this time to do all this, it's only right for me to give a fitting reply."
"Then let me help." Sumire offered.
Shin would have responded to that until he saw dark marks on the brunettes neck. "Sumire you that's ---"
She immediately placed her hand over it.
"Did that person. . hurt you again. . "
"N-no that's not it. I was with Yuhi earlier and he kinda. .. Um….I would rather not explain this. .. " Sumire said, her cheeks completely red.
He realises what she means right away and his cheeks turns a similar shade. "Oh--I see. Sorry." Shin clumsily apologized.
"No it's fine. T--hank you for worrying about me. "
But Terashima did that to her huh? The fact that she doesn't bother hiding it just goes to show how much she loves him.
"Sit down. You can't really walk around like that can you?"
"Yeah. . thanks. .." Sumire thanked him as she took a seat.
Shin brought out the medical supplies. His gaze fell on the brunette. She really has changed a lot appearance wise in terms of when they first met. Although there was always a certain flair about her then; he honestly saw her as a kid despite only having a year age gap.
He saw drastic changes in her last year but nothing major. Back then he would never have imagined that she would grow up to be so beautiful.
'I never cared about peoples appearances and even when I fell for her back when she had average looks. However gradually I began to pay more attention to appearance, it's hard to do so when the girl he love has become so beautiful.'
The girl he is in love with is so very beautiful and yet she is very careless too.
Shin made his way back to his chair and placed a bandage over the brunettes neck. As he takes out the antcipetic.
"You don't have to."
"Should you not be asking me, ' How did you know I was hurt?'" Shin said, taking out some cotton buds.
"There's no need to ask that. You're a genius after all."
"Even geniuses make mistakes, were you not the one who told me those words?"
"The fact that you can remember that is amazing enough."
Shin shuts his eyes, as he applied the antsceptic on her hand.
"That's what I would like to know. Why, why do your words pierce me so deeply? If I figured that out a long time ago, then maybe--" Shin paused.
If, if he figured it out a long time ago. Perhaps he would have moved forward like the others. The later despite being slow was the first one who found his answer, confessed, got rejected and moved forward.
"Not only did you strongly reject me before I could say those words you also rejected my help completely. You, wouldn't let me get involved. The later I know wasn't out of spite, your words are confusing but your actions have always made sense."
"My actions huh? Then, when I did that stuff afterwards. Did you understand what I was doing?"
Shin pauses to catch a glimpse of her expression. "I understood. It was frustrating and annoying. Even though we were close enough then for me to be one of your partners, our actual relationship didn't change. You tried to give me a chance, I failed. That's it. "
"You don't think of me as a fickle woman?"
"Who said that to you?"
Sumire shook her head. "No she hasn't actually. You would think she would have noticed it by now. But just recently whenever I'm alone I end up thinking about a lot of stuff. Towards senpai I wasn't fair at all. Although he also contributed to a lot of the mistakes in the past, I can't say I didn't do anything wrong either. I spoke about a lot of things with Atushi.
Atushi that the two of us were practically already going out already…After he said that I reanalyzed our actions in middle school and indeed thought so too. That's why I thought it was fine if we carried on the way we were. But that only caused us more pain. When he got hurt and and ended up in hospital, and when he said he would go to L.A I broke down.
It's a blur to me but I can remember the expression he made then. The two of us were being selfish, ' if we continue like this, nothing will change.' That's why we made such a foolish promise on the rooftop of the school on his last day. That promise was only for show, it was never intended to be real."
That promise huh? Atsuro told him to still watch over her for awhile longer since she only just recovered; so he saw and heard everything with his own eyes.
Ichinose Arashi huh? That man will play a important role in this. But for now, it's Atsuro who will be Yuhi's main issue.
"Why are you mentioning this now?"
"I wanted to get this talk out of the way before Atsuro returns." She sighed deeply. "I feel like he will be unreasonable the moment he arrives."
Shin frowned at those words. "Do you want me to..."
Sumire shook her head. "It's fine, I mean I have to speak to him eventually."
When he saw the brunette slump her head on the table; Shin looked up from the work he was doing. "What's the matter Sumire? Are you alright?"
"No it's nothing."
She says it's nothing and yet she makes that sort of face. What a strange girl; even now the things she does is still a mystery to him. Still, it genuinely seems like she is worried about something.
"If the thing with Atsuro bothers you, why don't you discuss it with Yuhi? Unfortunately, I can't help you with his matters."
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